I left you..

moved.
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xox

listen to this if you're bored.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dVVZaZ8yO6o
not sure why I love it.

remembering..

I used to think I was in love before him. I fell in love with everyone.
Thats why its hilarious. The one time I really mean it, the one I have to fight for people to believe me. They heard it countless times. They were tired of my endless boyfriends coming through the door. Another one?
Whatever..

I loved him instantly. The way he twisted his hands as he stood at my moms entrance, worried. What if she didn't like him? With a quick tip-toed kiss, and self-assurance I still would, we walked in.

Within two weeks, he whispered to me that he loved me.  It was a cool April morning, 2am. I was wearing one of his t-shirts, we were on our tummies talking, holding hands, legs intertwined, whispering.  That he never felt this way before; and it was crazy, scary, and he didn't want to scare me away but he couldn't not say it. He sat up, running a hand through his adorable bedhead, looking away then back, his hand tightening mine.  I crawled onto his lap and he just held me. I felt scared. I loved him too but didn't want to jinx it.

The way his deep dark eyes scanned mine worried. Why wasn't I saying it back? We transformed to high school. Quick smile, deeper, more urgent kiss, and it was returned.

I have spent less then one day away from him. He is my best friend. The one who chases me around the house, fits of laughter, tickles me until I threaten to pee the bed, the one who grabs me and shakes me away when I'm in a night terror and then holds me, silently, playing with my hair.

....Or when we walk by girls with hoops in their ears, fancy clothes, and high heels in the grocery store and I glance down at my worn jeans, ugg boots and sweater jacket, hair pulled in a quick ponytail and the usual minimal make up. We get home, I rush to the bathroom to fancy up. Come out, and he laughs. Grabs my hand, twirls me and we march back into the washroom. His arms lifting me onto the counter and his other hand, rinsing a facecloth into the warm water. Kisses my nose, forehead, mouth - wipes my make up off, shakes his head and says, "your beautiful. Don't be anyone but you. I love you. None of them look like that in the morning when they wake up.. you do and its beautiful."

I am lucky.


A year later and its like I just met his gaze from across the room and we stood there, smirking, mesmerized.

monday must ;

{via marlyn schiff}

Doesn't it remind you of India meets the Queen?

Gorgeous. 

xo. a.

PS: Prices? All under 100.00-. 

glymm, topbox, birch, annnnnd luxe!

Ashley ( from that superawesomeblog.com) posted about an awesome gift she got for Christmas - birchbox. I read it over and was instantly jealous. Raced to the website, pushed, "BUY NOW" and sadly, read that they don't ship to Canada.
What, are we too nice?

I started googling over sample door to door subscriptions en route to Canada and had to chose between topbox.ca, glymm, or luxe box. I went over the deals, I looked at the websites, and I googled what other people had received.

I chose luxe box. With luxe box, you get traveller size & regular applications. I got the year subscription so I also got 2 months free and 3 months of a fashion/beauty magazine.

With glymm, you get a thing of jelly bellies. Cute, but I'm not 12.
There wasn't alot of topbox referrals, it was mostly glymm vs luxe box. That made me uncomfortable..

This isn't to say glymm and topbox are out of my mind but for me to persuade Vlado to spend 120 of OUR savings on samples? I'd say I'm good for a couple more months before I come up with a different strategy to get the other two subscriptions. Keep you updated.. xoxo.

XO.

Masque?

I just got this from Wal-Mart for 4.00. I love it. This is not a paid or sponsored post, but just a fan doing fanatic things such as writing about it.

The coolest thing about this mask is that when it dries, and you shove your little green face into the mirror, you can see these dark green spots of oil being collected. The lemon is the most powerful scent but lemon + skin = healthy like whoa!

You don't need a thick layer but it only costs 4$ so you could easily layer up and spend all day trying to make it dry if you wanted too..

So, I usually try to educate myself when I love something and here is my learnings.

Education Clay Masks 101

How it works? Basically, you cram it into your pores and dead skin. It is sticky. It dries on your face. You wash it off. While washing it off, you also wash the dirt, clogged pores, and dead dry skin. Underneath is beautiful clear skin. It has water in the clay so it also hydrates .. (not sure if I believe that one, I usually need tons of lotion after)

Make sure you use: Toner after washing it off. It re-balances your skin after stripping it.

Do it: 2x a week.

2012 Resolutions

Health
1. Ensure water is constantly in the fridge.
2. More veggies, fruits, nuts. Less chips, junkfood, etc.
3. No fastfood all year and if Vlado goes to one, its salad and water!

Wealth
1. Save up 3200.00 for my Serbia trip in January 2013.
2. Pay off my credit card by Christmas.
3. By the end of New Years 2012 - have 750.00 in savings.

Family
1. Spend more time with Bruce.
2. Help babysit the kids.
3. Arrange girls night once every two months.

Friends
1. Re-kindle friendship with childhood best friend.
2. Make more of an effort to be a better friend to the ones I have.
3. Less partying and being drunk and more friendship fun things to do around the city.

Culture
1. Read 20 books.
2. Make 5 different necklaces from beading.
3. Start learning Serbian :)

Giving Back
1. Give 3-5 Christmas presents to a single parent and her children.
2. Volunteer somewhere useful for 10 hours.
3. Donate, Donate, Donate!!!!

My Love
1. Do a huge surprise date sometime within 2012 for him.
2. Write a love letter, just because.
3. Learn more serbian recipes so he has home food.

{2011}

January-March was when my life wasn't happy.
Who knew? Who knew that in March, standing in a club, I would meet Vlado?
The way he glanced up and say, "Hey" and I just nodded. The smirk in his eyes when I said, "No" to him asking if he could buy me a drink. The way he pushed away my friend to dance with me. The way our eyes never left the others for the entire night. The fact that we were both sober in a club at midnight is beyond me.

The laughter in his eyes as he dropped me off at another club with my friends, only for me to march in, walk up to my DJ  boyfriend at the time, and promptly break up with him. We weren't happy. I knew that feeling of happiness now and I knew I had to get to know this guy better. The shock in that boyfriends face, the happiness in mine as I walked out. The next day, meeting Vlado in his cool car and getting to know him and laughing, touching, hugging, kissing.

Since March, I have been away from Vlado for exactly one day. You might pick me up and place me in the needy girlfriend pile, thats okay. I would too.

In 2011, I found my soulmate. My best friend, the love of my life. We moved in together. I can jump into his shower with all my clothes on and kiss him admidst his uncontrollable laughter. I lean over, "Night, sweet dreams, see you soon... in my dreams! Love you little Angel" and he rolls his eyes, kissing back. We make food together, we do everything together.

In 2011, my life finally felt complete. I spent 24 years wandering aimlessly around this earth always feeling like I wasn't good enough, or I was settling, or that group of girls wouldn't like me because I was weird and I had to control what came out of my mouth... and then he came into my life and sat back and watched me destruct his life into a masterpeiece.

...I wasn't scared anymore to be anyone but me.

and I can hold his hand in the middle of the store, look up at him and say, "... If an elephant came into our apartment, would it go through the floor because it was so large?"... and it never fails: He is going to laugh hysterically, cup my cheeks in his hands, and kiss my forehead. "This is why I love you Audge."

Thats why I love you too, Vlado.